Pain Diary Entry: 2 January 2023

This is what happens when you put a nearly finished candle into a plastic container and fill it with epoxy resin. After a month or two of working out how to do these deep pours I am looking forward to seeing what interesting things i can create. I like playing with epoxy as it helps me find ways to distract and entertain myself that is benefitting my mental health. who knows what other skills I'm learning and where they will lead. I Just know what Sort of life i want to have and the more weird things i learn the more i feel like i can survive it. Don't need to all the time as all the time would make it stagnant. Im transitioning into a new way of living, learning a whole lot of skills along the way and finding fun cross overs from odd places.
Learning by touch how hot the epoxy gets when doing a 6/7cm pour was interesting, but it's simultaneous hardening whilst the heated wax melted and floated to the top as less dense, it became trapped, seemingly now caught by time at a moment of destruction. Parts of my body hurt significantly but hopefully soon i find out if it's worth it, but i think so. I'm just starting this journey and my energy, so long as I'm careful and look after my mind to, has many decades to power me without a doubt, buddy on the other hand...
Slow and steady is how i can do this. We rush to much and suddenly another year is gone. Time becomes skewed in our memory of its duration, i want to slow down and absorb each moment. Even if its agonising, that's the biology I'm given, so like everyone else, i just need to find a way to live with what i got, cos its not going to change much.
i am searching for a plateau to rest and launch adventures from. Even in my living room with a candle and some fun liquid chemistry and a mind. But now, lots to do, happy Monday peeps!