“Gḻāćíãl Ṟémåiṉś”

Pain 6/10.

Location: Wasserbillig, Luxembourg

Pain Diary Entry: 31 March 2023

Moving quite slowly now after a hectic month away. Returning from a 3 day tour of the highlands and isle of Skye in Scotland Ive crashed in bed for the last 30 hours from exhaustion. But I've found something i wasn't expecting in a place i wasn't planning to be even 3 weeks ago. The highlands of Scotland. I've seen photos over the years as well as many TV shows and films that show off this place but being here was significantly different. The texture of the landscape that at first looks barren and almost like being on another planet, changes when you get out the car and walk the Myriad of paths through the brush and scrub, finding little streams and hidden grasslands scattered all over yet hidden from view. Life grabbing onto whatever it can to survive and thrive. I expected rain and clouds, which arrived, but not before getting an opportunity to see the highlands in clear skies. With few people about there was ample space and time to wander and see the details whilst standing in the shadows of the snow capped peaks. I've pushed myself to the absolute limit and now need to recover. The extremes of Scotland marrying my own. I have poems swirling in my head from the experience and look forward to retracing my steps whilst meditating and dreaming. I can picture the paths i took, slowly putting one painful foot in front of the other, my motivation overcoming any obstacles, knowing I'll be able to rest when I'm back home, where i will carry this inspiration into the next year.
My anxiety for the coming month of doctors and whatever comes after is still there, but i have new places to explore in my mind as i sit in the waiting room, retracing each step until i can visualise every detail again. I think i want to learn to paint now as well, to further explore my imagination, spurred on by the adventures i take. I need to rest now though. I'm cooked 😊

Size (framed): 79.6cm x 54.6cm Landscape

Frame: Black Wood with grain

Material: Brushed Aluminium

Price: 557 EUR (incl VAT)

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